Tuesday, July 04, 2006


No, I haven't forgotten how to spell. This newly created word is meant to capture the oppositional emotions of difficulty. The emotion you so often carry around duriing the long haul of recovery is a constantly conflicting mix of dread and anticipation - "dreadicipation." Frankly, it just wears you out!

Tomorrow we see Nicole's knee specialist. "Dreadicipation" is the emotion I feel going in. It is good that Nikki is under such fine care. It is good the we will get a definitive plan with regard to her knee. So we plan for the appointment with postive anticipation. Yet at the same time, we dread the possibility that Nicole may need surgery on one or both of her legs. And we dread the setback that could be to her recovery.

Last night we were able to take Nicole to an outdoor cafe. We are deeply thankful that she has come this far. We did not think it would be possible to do this kind of activity this soon. We anticipate that Nicole will progressively be able to do more. Yet we are very fearful of re-injury. We are very aware that the many breaks of Nicole's pelvis are not fully healed and that her legs still are not ready to bear weight. We dread the thought that in one of her adventures outside the house, she would be injured again and face a crushing physical setback.

Nicole anticipates any moment she is able to be outside and she dreads the long, long hours, day after day, in the same two rooms of our house. Here days are filled with "dreadicipation."

Pray for us as we are tossed back and forth with daily "dreadicipation." Pray that this lifstyle of conflicting emotions would be tempered by faith. Pray that we would make wise decisions, but in seeking to be wise, not give way to fear.


Blogger Victory76 said...

"Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete lacking in nothing. But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously without reproach, and it will be given him. But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind."
This is part of the passage that has recently been a great comfort and joy to consider and meditate its meaning for my life. I am praying for Nicole, you, and your wife trusting in God's faithfulness and goodness. I hope the appointment goes is a encouraging one.

9:06 AM  
Blogger caztime said...

Thank you for sharing so thoughtfully your daily routines and concerns for Nicole. It is an amazing privilege to pray for you all and to know how best to pray. The insights you give are profound and meaningful to me as I try to understand not only what Nicole and you are going through, but what life is like when difficulty comes to our door. We can only trust in our God who sees all and knows all and holds our fragile lives in His hands. I pray that you all will experience daily reminders of His precious love and care and that you will receive strength for everything you need to do; also that Nicole will know that, whatever the results of her appointment with the doctor, Jehovah Rapha is in complete control! And He makes no mistakes. God bless you all.
Carolyn Black

2:59 PM  
Blogger Phyllis said...

I have read almost all of your books and some 2 times. I have often wished I could email you and thank you for the enormous impact they have had on me. I'm sorry this has had to be the venue. I will be praying for your daughters healing and for endurance and perseverance for each of you. She is a beautiful girl. I would ask that you would please pray for my beautiful daughter as you wait for her recovery. I know the theraputic advantage it is to invest in others lives while going thru trials. My daughter has mental illness. She is not saved and has been on just about every medication that is available. Please pray for her healing and for us as we wait for God to open the eyes of her heart to see the Saviour. God bless you

7:25 PM  

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